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2day meet up wif BB.
Veri long nvr meet up wif her le.
Starting a bit awkward...
Perhaps cos too long bo meet den lyk gt nth to tok.
Bused to Bugis frm Pasir Ris.
Quite long journey.
Chit-chat during the journey.
She asked me still got miss him anot?
My ans was I duno.
But honestly, I did miss him.
Went to eat Pastamania.
Den shop @ bugis street.
Bought KOI.
Waited for quite long.
Saw someone backview look lyk him.
Trained back.
Had to squeeze into e train lyk sardines in the can.
It was much more packed than ytd.
Den she tok on e phone wif nic.
She told me he was tere.
Asked me wana go anot???
I did wanted to go in my heart.
But I said nope to her.
Wat for I go if e atmosphere is awkward wif her, it will be even more awkward if i go.
And I tink tat if I go,
I look at u den wen I go home,
I will miss u even more.
And I tink I will turn emo aft tat.
I also tink tat it wasnt the right time to see u yet.
So I trained back to pasir ris.
Perhaps u r not the right one for me.
And I haven clear u completely out of my head and heart.
I tink u dun worth it for me to keep thinking of u & missing u.
Cos it seems lyk u r happie wif ur life.
Or perhaps u r faking it again in order to protect urself frm getting hurt.
I tell u,
If u continue faking it,
Ppl will drift away frm u.
Although u r not e one getting hurt,
But u r e one hurting other ppl.
Wat's sooo nice to keep faking wen u are not lyk tat??????????
Aren't u tired of faking, acting & pretending in front of every one???
Last time I did try to get to noe u.
But aft trying tat time,
I gave up.
Cos u r jus too complicated.
I duno wat & who to believe???
Went to ntuc.
Helped mum to buy thing.
Walked back home.
Along the way,
Was ktv-ing... :)