090710 part 2

Actuali supposed to post tis first.
But seriously mus vent my anger first.
For tis whole week,
I feel tat im not myself.
I've lyk suddenly become sooo hardworking at home.
Perhaps one reason because tis is my last lap and i wana do my very best to finish it.
2nd reason maybe is to numb myself wif studies.
Starting of e sch,
I nvr missed you.
I tot I've improved on it.
每当我渐渐忘了你，我却更想你。
But den still will haf some things/someone reminds me of u.
Songs,watch, ppl mentioning u to me, and sometimes even seeing Show.
Seriously i regret tat I say u look lyk Show lor.
Actuali i forget abt e watch le,
But den duno y ytd Ting suddenly ask me how to press the Levi's watch thingy,
I suddenly rmb u also got.
Den b4 I slp,
Twin asked me a random question abt u.
Not blaming my twin for asking.
Cos she jus wana care & concern for me.
I till now still duno i is it reali receive wrong signal frm u???
Cos I dun tink u r those who will anihow give people present u jus noe not long ago.
And somemore the first one is the most Im confused with.
If u reali nvr ever had a bit feelings for me,
Den how come u noe wat i lyk???
Actuali I wana noe how's ur life is going on,
But den I've already deleted ur number,fb & msn le.
LoL... im toking keling keling.
I tink I can count myself lucky enough.
I also nvr go into a relationship with u at all.
Wa I cant imagine wat will happen if i go into bgr???
I tink sure more sad than tis one.
So i better not go into one.
I tink we r quite ridiculous lor.
We were once normal friends,
But now we r lyk jus strangers.
Y cant we jus be normal friends???
If we now r still friends,
I tink I more hard to get out of tis hole.
So if can delete u in my life,
I will do it.
Tat will be great.
Everything is said easier than done.
I rather be myself before i noe u than u gif me all those false hopes & wrong signal & happie memories tat makes me hurts sooo much now.
One thing seriously im still quite angry with u.
Pls la... If u noe a girl got a crush on u, u better tell them straightly and clearly.
Get hurt earlier and accept the truth is alwas better than get hurt later and still cant accept the truth.
Pls change ur stupid concept say wat scare the girl get hurt or watever wen u rejected them...
If u dun say things clearly at first,
The girl will hurt more & more.
Cos by the time she noes the truth,
She already fall deeply for u.
It is difficult for her to come out of tat "hole".
Cos it is veri deep for her to come out le.
Tat wat i dislike u tis stupid idiot arrogant guy.
See la because of sooo mani queries and ppl mentioning u to me and those things remind me of u,
Makes me more difficult to forget u leh.
My wound is healing and u "touch" it,
It get wound infection and the wound opens it up again.
Lyk tat how to heal sia???
My dear friends,
Pls dun mention him to me animore.
Cos here I am trying my best to forget abt tis person,
U all at tere keep mentioning him to me,
Im still e one suffering.
So it wont make me feel better.
Jus treat tat he has nvr exist in my life b4.
If not,
I guess i will not give up on him.
So all my efforts will go down the drain.
I noe all of u r care & concern for me,
But nxt time if u wana noe,
Is for me to noe, for u guys to find out.
Thanks for ur cooperation & ur concern.
Im alright. :D