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231109

Afternoon shift.
Monday was happie.
I was lyk veri sad wen i sms her.
Cos i haven reach cgh den started raining.
I did mention abt him to Monday.
Time passed quite fast. :D
Perhaps bcos i keep write thingys.

241109

Afternoon shift again.
2day i didnt mention abt him to Monday.
But she mention him to me.
She say she saw him in e bus.
I was lyk asking her to "kill" me.
Reached cgh quite early.
Sit at fish pond tere to wait for her to come.
He was in front of her.
But he lyk different seh.
As in he now lyk not sooo friendly. :(
Went over to T1 to help botak.
Cos he alone.
Den my team gt 4 ppl.
He lyk "kidnap" me away frm Monday lor.
He dun let me go find Monday.
Den Monday ignored me. :(
I tink she is not in e mood.
Botak & I tok a lot of rubbish.
At nite,
Finally can escape away frm him.
So I finally tok to Monday.
Den I duno y I gt tis stupid idea to play a prank on botak.
Actuali not reali a prank.
Is smth lyk prank + testing botak.
Monday tell him smth.
Den aft work,
We managed to catch e bus on time.
I smsed botak.
Say i lyk him blahblah~
At first he didnt reply me.
Den i smsed botak again.
I guess he is angry.
So i smsed him im joking wif him b4 i slp.

251109

Morning shift.
Was super sleepy.
Cos ytd was afternoon shift.
And omg... I saw him again b4 my work.
I super regret tat i play prank on botak seh.
Cos he lyk avoid/ignore me lor. :(
Im sorrie...
Now i noe how ppl feel wen they play prank on ppl and ppl kena prank.
To me,
Both e feelings also nt gd.
I will never never never ever ever ever play prank lyk botak's case again.
But i seriously duno y guys will avoid gals aft they noe e gal lyk them/if e gal tell them i lyk u.
And i also dun understand y guy can toy wif gal's feelings but gal cant toy wif guy's feelings.
Den do skills wif cher.
Afternoon shift students came.
Half an hr b4 end work,
Gt one en gif us play game.
I nvr play...
I jus help Monday to tink.
I tink i 2day eat wrong meds seh.
I lyk suddenly become clever & proud & happie lor.
I dun lyk me to be proud.
End work,
Took bus 9 wif Monday to Tampines Blk 201 tere.
She wana do threading.
But e person nt tere.
So we nid to wait for her for 10 mins.
Den we walk walk ard e area.
Thank you Monday for treating me roti. :D
Den went back to e shop.
Aft tat bused back wif her.
Sent her to her huse lift tere.
Den walked home by myself.
On my way home,
I keep thinking abt lots of stuffs.
I wont haf a lot of hope to haf a bf.
Cos i noe e more hope u haf, e more u will be disappointed.
And seriously im kinda tired of waiting for it to happen.
I shall leave everything to God to let him decide for me.
Perhaps I will not haf a bf forever in my life.
But i wont die without having one.
I will die without my family & friends.
Oh ya... And I tink i only can haf friendship wif guys and not beyond tat.
Purely friendship onli... :D
My heart is not guarded by myself.
Cos i duno try how many times to so called "harden" it,
But is lyk still "soft".
Feel lyk put a door in my heart,
Lock e door,
And throw e key far far away.
So tat my heart will be locked & no one else can enter.
Except one day,
Gt one guy will find e key to enter my heart.
But can i lock my heart to myself?!
Yea~ Watched finish my drama ep 4.
Nice show.
Cant wait to watch ep 5.
Gonna be a sad ep.
I did a veri veri last min of changing blogskin.
Cos im sick of my previous skin.
Will edit e skin a bit more 2molo.
Now gonna slp soon.