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Haiz... Do not know why almost all my friends are always sooo busy?!
I thought I can go out and play with my friends before 18th.
Never mind, I already xi guan liao.
Although I already xi guan being alone,
But I hate to be alone.
I can become 孤独老人了.
That is the reason why I am always staying at home.
At home waiting for them to be free and come to find me.
Like I have said in Bookworm's tagboard.
I am just like a basketball being pass around.
Because of some reasons,
I now do not even dare to jio people go out.
Last time I jio people go out,
Always kena rejected.
俗语说的好:希望越大,失望就越大.
That why nowadays I rather stay at home alone than jio people go out.
Because I am scare to be rejected.
And I think this week my mood gonna to be bad ba.
Because gonna to take the result liao.
Sooo scare la.
Plus I also scare my friendship problems.
I also do not know why I cannot handle my friendship well.
I sucks at that.
No one understands me because I myself do not understand me too.
Only the person who created me understand me.
So I think only God understands me.
And yet I am drifted sooo far away from Him.